Alyssa Scottcontinues to honor her son’s memory.
On Thursday, the modelposted on Instagramhonoring her late son withNick Cannonon what would have been the little boy’s first birthday.
“Happy heavenly birthday Zen. At the root of all the emotions I have today there is insurmountable love,” she wrote.
“I always try my best to remain optimistic but right now I can’t help but cry out ‘it’s not suppose [sic] to be like this,'” she continued. “In my mind I can see him smashing his cake and crawling around, tugging at my legs. But the reality is I will blow out his first candle. I will wish he was still here with us. GO REST HIGH 🤍”
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Cannon laterrepostedScott’s tribute, adding, “The loving, nurturing, irrefrangible, and strength-filled Amazing Mother [Alyssa] said it way better than I could ever.”
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Earlier this year, Scott shared an old photo of Zen sleeping, telling her followers that she’s “eternally grateful” that she was able to spend time with him before he died.
“We knew since August that Zens time on this earth would be limited. We knew he would not make it to see 6 months. I am eternally grateful he was in the arms of the people who loved him most,” she wrote.
“We were faithful and hopeful for that time,” Cannon said on his talk show. “We carried on, he was still just playing with his brothers and sisters, I embraced every moment.”
“I wanted to definitely respect the grieving process with Alyssa, and Bre was respectful enough — she held off making our announcements and speaking on social media,” Cannon told viewers. “She’s a very, you know, in the public eye type of person, but keeps her stuff private as well.”
source: people.com
